Well I saw it coming from a mile away and I guess that it was mutual…I am single and have to learn to battle the world & my illness alone. I am sad but there isn’t any point in being with someone when it is so much effort and so draining to just keep things together. I have been denying it and denying it but it’s time to face the music, harden up and stand on my own two feet.
I hope that my Dad will let me move back home with him again in march after the lease to my house is up because if not I’ll be out on the street.
Now I know how alone and scared my husband must have felt when we separated. I know how much I hurt him and what he felt. Man if only I could rewind time because I’d still be with my soul mate, we’d still be happily married and probably have a child by now. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about what could have been and how stupid I was.
I was promised a life of happiness and I ended up with the polar opposite. Thats the last time I ever believe man. I let him get into my head and he made me believe that the grass was greener on the other side, stupid stupid girl I am.
I just wanted to be happy and instead I have ended up depressed, sad and alone. Go figure.