Alone for the first time in 6+ years

Well I saw it coming from a mile away and I guess that it was mutual…I am single and have to learn to battle the world & my illness alone. I am sad but there isn’t any point in being with someone when it is so much effort and so draining to just keep things together. I have been denying it and denying it but it’s time to face the music, harden up and stand on my own two feet. 

I hope that my Dad will let me move back home with him again in march after the lease to my house is up because if not I’ll be out on the street. 

Now I know how alone and scared my husband must have felt when we separated. I know how much I hurt him and what he felt. Man if only I could rewind time because I’d still be with my soul mate, we’d still be happily married and probably have a child by now. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about what could have been and how stupid I was.

I was promised a life of happiness and I ended up with the polar opposite. Thats the last time I ever believe man. I let him get into my head and he made me believe that the grass was greener on the other side, stupid stupid girl I am. 

I just wanted to be happy and instead I have ended up depressed, sad and alone. Go figure.


Second #projectlife #layout not as happy with this one but that’s ok #week2 & #week3 #scrapbooking #handmade #amytangerine #whimsywhispers (at Haus of Bun)


jennit2winit:

knivesandglitter:

I went looking for support for my chronic illness and instead I got so scared I had another panic attack.

I don’t want to be blind I don’t want brain surgery I don’t want spinal taps I don’t want medical bills I don’t want these headaches, this…

Hey lovely,
There is a wonderful community of people who will help and support you. I am always here is you’d like to have a chat. I have had this horrible condition for a little over 3 years now. This year I had my first vp shunt and a revision 3 months later. If you need anything please please reach out <3 Chloe x


Finally took the plunge and did my first #projectlife spread #wk1 I am starting from the beginning of the year as it has been a big and important year for me. I just want to get it documented! #scrapbooking #pocketpage #maggieholmes #craft #papercraft #whimsywhispers (at Haus of Bun)


#rainbow #layout made using #bubblewrap as a #stamp. The #journaling will be about how i have #grown as a person and learnt to accept that there are people and situations in life that I can not change. #scrapbooking #selfie #colourful #paint #bright (at Haus of Bun)


#sick again got the #flu :( the flu mixed with #IIH is horrible #spoonielife #selfie (at Haus of Bun)


The #fathersday #card I #handmade for my #daddy :3 (at Haus of Bun)


#hair in every colour of the #rainbow LO. #scrapbooking #craft #colourful #sewing #handstitched #selfies #whimsywhispers #watercolour (at Haus of Bun)


#rainbow #hair ❤️💛💚💙💜💖 every colour of hair I have had aside from black haha 😁 #dye #colourful #bright #selfies (at Haus of Bun)


#taco #boats for #dinner tonight #food #tacos #mexican #dinnertime #yum #cheese (at Haus of Bun)


Another 2 #smashbook #pages #ladygaga #mothermonster #littlemonsters #artpop #amazing #artrave #artpopball #artraveperth #craft #scrapbooking #whimsywhispers #mine (at Haus of Bun)


#smashbook #smashbooking #scrapbooking #craft #handmade #whimsywhispers #artpop #amazing #artrave #artpopball #artraveperth #ladygaga #mothermonster (at Haus of Bun)


@ladygaga please come back soon we love you! Thank you for an amazing show xx 💜 #ladygaga #mothermonster #littlemonsters #artpop #artrave #amazing #artpopball #artraveperth #pawsup! (at Haus of Bun)


#ladygaga #mothermonster #littlemonsters #artpop #amazing #artrave #artpopball #artraveperth (at Lady Gaga in Perth)


#ladygaga #mothermonster #artpop #amazing #artrave #artpopball #artraveperth #littlemonsters (at Lady Gaga in Perth)